David, a man after God’s own heart, fell. He fell in the worst ways and paid the price for generations to come. He caused immense pain for himself and for those who came behind him.
We (rightly) talk of God’s forgiveness of David and His forgiveness of us, when we truly repent. Of course, repentance doesn’t mean saying we are sorry and continuing down the same path or maybe a little different path but holding on tightly to certain of our old ways.
David brought another man’s wife into his home and slept with her. She became pregnant and he tried to cover his sin by calling her husband, Uriah, home from war so he would sleep with his own wife and believe the baby was his. But he was such a man of integrity that he wouldn’t sleep with his wife because his men (who were still at war) could not be with their wives. So, David got him drunk and tried again. Since that didn’t work, he put Uriah in the front lines of battle and had the other soldiers move back and Uriah was murdered.
Do you remember this abbreviated list of David’s heartaches as a result of his sins? His baby died as a result of his sin, one of his sons raped one of his daughters as a result of his sin, his own son tried to kill him and take over the throne as the result of his sin.
It is an eye opening experience to look back and see the mistakes your parents made as a result of their sins and then…see how their lives negatively affected your marriage and your parenting. It is worse when you see your sins affecting your kids’ lives.
It is awful to watch someone you love immensely as they sin themselves out of loving relationships and begin to form relationships that you know can only cause them (and those who truly love them) immense emotional pain and often (because of the stress) physical ramifications.
And here it is…the description of how it works: When we are in a relationship with the LORD…we find faithful love in Him and just naturally seek harmony with those around us who love Him and walk in His ways. But when we live denying (and/or hiding) our own wickedness…we rob ourselves of the faithful love surrounding us. There is just… no way for us to rejoice in the LORD…or in our own righteousness or the healthy love surrounding us.
Yet…if we choose to repent and seek His forgiveness and with a humble heart, seek the forgiveness of those around us and choose to walk away from the sin…He longs to give us a fresh start. Sometimes, even those who have surrounded us with love will give us the opportunity to regain their trust and release themselves to a loving relationship with us once again.
Why do we hang on to what irrevocably will harm us? Why do we wait to humble ourselves and seek His face?
Psalm 32:10-11 Many pains come to the wicked, but the one who trusts in the LORD will have faithful love surrounding him. Be glad in the LORD and rejoice, you righteous ones; shout for joy, all you upright in heart.